Happy Sunday everyone! I hope you have grabbed your coffee and are having a great morning! I started writing my Sunday post Saturday night and stopped at 11:54 pm and saved it as a draft for later. I walked away from it and knew that was not where God wanted me to go today – I literally could feel the Lord moving me to a post that has been lingering in the back of my mind for 2 weeks now. When I say “feel God moving me”, I’m talking- I’m tearing up as I write this first paragraph.
A few Sunday’s ago I wrote a praise report about how well the blog has been doing since October of last year. I told about how I talk with God at the first of the month and set my goals with him and how he has come through each month. Not only reaching the goal but surpassing it. How I would look at the analytics and be amazed at how he is working in my life. Literally the next day -my numbers plummeted.
Let me explain how blog posts work. I get the majority of my traffic from Pinterest, most bloggers do. I have had 3-5 blog posts that went viral, which means I was getting thousands of people from Pinterest pinning a blog and people all around the world were seeing it and clicking on it to read. For all those viral blog posts ( ten thousand and more views a month) to suddenly stop in one day is quite frankly odd. I can see one or two slowing down – but dropping by tens of thousands is something to ponder on.
The first week of April, I thought ok…the Lord is going to come in and show me how mighty he is and we are going to hit those goals. Day after day I could feel my faith start dwindling. I would have thoughts like, well, 40K views a month is still really good. Then I would catch myself and say, No Beverly – this is a test of faith. Because I truly believe God can do all things. And the Bible tells me if we ask and believe, it shall be given to us. If 2 or more agree in his name, it so shall happen! I believe that 200%!
Do I feel the devil is breathing down my neck? Oh Lord YES! Tania from 50 Is Not Old, text me Saturday morning and we talked for over an hour and a half. Of course, we talked about her trip, Rodan+Fields, our lives, and blogging. She always has such great insight and fires me up again – she has become a sister that I can confide in and definitely has been placed in my life by God. After our long talk, I did feel better – but still in the back of my mind think this is a spiritual thing. I may be wrong, but I am leaning towards this because the devil has fought me so hard in my life – I know he’s not giving up and leaving me alone! Nor will he leave you alone either.
Luke 17:6, Jesus tells His disciples, “If you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mulberry tree, ‘Be uprooted and planted in the sea,’ and it will obey you.” By using the uncommonly small mustard seed as an example, Jesus is speaking figuratively about the incalculable power of God when unleashed in the lives of those with true faith.
I LOVE the scripture I just posted and I love the incalculable power of God and what He can do when we have true faith. People say to speak what you want and it has power. The Bible says there is life and death in the tongue. We know that if we belittle and abuse our spouse, children, etc. with words that constantly put them down – they are prone to believe it and therefore it becomes real.
So, I wanted to confront this issue that has perplexed me and call it out. I want to have faith like God wants us to have. I want to obey the Lord and I want to be able to fight spiritually against the forces of evil. Even if it is over a blog, obviously this blog has brought many Christian women together and that is never what the devil would want to happen. I truly believe that we all have things in our lives that can bring doubt and it can creep in and it can waiver our faith. I’m stripping down and letting you girls in on this struggle I am having spiritually. I know I can talk to you girls and most of you understand exactly what I am talking about. Others may think I’m a “Jesus freak”, and you know what…I sure AM!!! Without Him, I would be dead right now, without Him, my child would be dead, without Him I cannot function daily. So YES…I will lean of God and I know He has his hand on my life – every part of my life.
One of my favorite songs is, “I Can’t Even Walk Without Him Holding My Hand.” There is truth in that song, I learned how to stand down on my knees. This may be a test, it may be the devil fighting against a Christian speaking out about God. It could be a variety of things, whatever the reason -I will not falter. Ladies, if you are going through something and your faith has been shaken – I KNOW EXACTLY how you feel. I know the struggle, the inner fight, how worry creeps in. Stop!!!!
Trust in the God that made the Earth, Trust in the God who has never left your side, Trust in the God that loved you so much that he gave his life so that you may have everlasting life. Believe that you are his child, and just like we want to see our children succeed and we would help them any way we can – so will GOD! He knows your struggles, he knows your hurt, he knows the obstacles in your life. Do not let doubt sneak its way into your life. That is the devil trying to steal your blessing! I have a lot of Christian girlfriends that follow the blog and I know you pray for me and my family and I want you to know that I call your name out in prayer also. I am thankful for each and every one of you. You have impacted my life in such a huge manner. I cannot express my gratitude for your friendships!
God promised in His word things that can be hard for us to believe, but ladies – we are all on this blog for a reason. You girls prayed for my daughter, you have prayed for me and I pray for you all. I think we may just scare the devil a tad bit! Though we may be states apart, or even countries apart, we are connected through this blog and us ladies can take advantage of Matthew 18:19.
Matthew 18:19 – “Again, truly I tell you that if two of you on earth agree about anything they ask for, it will be done for them by my Father in heaven.”
Ladies – this is a powerful scripture that can be invoked because God cannot lie. So today, I am asking that we comment below ( just an “I have a need”) and we ladies of faith can start our own Sunday prayer chain. We can be used by God for people all over the United States and even the world – all through a little conservative fashion blog. I feel like there are women out there that can use some other women praying for them. We all come from different walks of life, but we all are human, and wouldn’t it be nice to get to heaven and someone walks up to you and say – I am HERE because YOU Gave to the Lord!
Thank you for stopping by the blog, thank you for your comments, and thank you for your friendships! I talk to some of you girls every day and have come to look forward to hearing about your lives.
You ladies have a great day!! I want you to see that everything is not rosy in my life, I have fears, doubts and struggle with faith at times too. But, the one thing I know—-praying women are a force! I grew up watching the women in my church pray with and for each other and I still believe he hears and moves today – just as much as he did back in our younger days sitting in church. God bless you ladies!! Please comment below and know that I commit myself to agree with you and I will be praying for you. No matter if it is a small thing or a life-changing thing. That’s what Love is all about! XOXO